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I Build a Home In You

I build a HOME in you,
And decorated it with care and affection,
That's what I can call it though,

I didn't love myself enough, doesn't mean I couldn't..
It's that I loved you too much and I only wanted this,
I wanted to be happy as well ,but I prioritized yours over mine,

I build a home in you,.
Now I wish I shouldn't have done this,
It's destruction led me to get desolated,
I get loneliner each day,
You didn't realize that even if I said it aloud,

You let go of my hand when I needed you most,
When I needed you beside me, you were rude towards me,

I wished for the same thing , you wished for once,
The only person I wanted to be with,
Get lost in the crowd I introduced you to,
I wanted you to have more friends,
Not wanted them to suggest me how good or bad I am,
You took their side while I was hurt by that,

I search the entire world for the word that can describe ,
What's called more than hurt,
What's called more than empty,
And more than lonelier,
What's that I could say to make you realize
I wasn't what you pictured me in last days,
I was what you didn't felt at all.....
I build a HOME in you and I regret that now,....
I could have loved myself as you told me you did,
I could be happy as well ,as you said I didn't want to be that's why I wasn't,
You're wondering why I left you?
Because you left me ages ago,
You weren't happy with me anymore,


You left me in your heart a long time ago,
I was holding onto you even it was hurting me,
Now I left you with what you're happy,
The good and supporting ones,

You cried that it was unfair,
But didn't hold my hand whenever I come back to you ,
Didn't realize your mistakes but counted mine,
It wasn't that I wanted faultless friends, I wanted you, but only for me,
You Were bitter towards me because of someone else...
I wasn't what I was for you before...

This situation kept me from going forward,
Making it difficult to leave my bed in the morning,
Making me hate myself to remember the things I want to erase from my mind...


I build a HOME in you,
And I wish I didn't have done that....

Copyright © Maya Evans | Year Posted 2023

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