I Build a Home In You

I build a HOME in you, And decorated it with care and affection, That's what I can call it though, I didn't love myself enough, doesn't mean I couldn't.. It's that I loved you too much and I only wanted this, I wanted to be happy as well ,but I prioritized yours over mine, I build a home in you,. Now I wish I shouldn't have done this, It's destruction led me to get desolated, I get loneliner each day, You didn't realize that even if I said it aloud, You let go of my hand when I needed you most, When I needed you beside me, you were rude towards me, I wished for the same thing , you wished for once, The only person I wanted to be with, Get lost in the crowd I introduced you to, I wanted you to have more friends, Not wanted them to suggest me how good or bad I am, You took their side while I was hurt by that, I search the entire world for the word that can describe , What's called more than hurt, What's called more than empty, And more than lonelier, What's that I could say to make you realize I wasn't what you pictured me in last days, I was what you didn't felt at all..... I build a HOME in you and I regret that now,.... I could have loved myself as you told me you did, I could be happy as well ,as you said I didn't want to be that's why I wasn't, You're wondering why I left you? Because you left me ages ago, You weren't happy with me anymore, You left me in your heart a long time ago, I was holding onto you even it was hurting me, Now I left you with what you're happy, The good and supporting ones, You cried that it was unfair, But didn't hold my hand whenever I come back to you , Didn't realize your mistakes but counted mine, It wasn't that I wanted faultless friends, I wanted you, but only for me, You Were bitter towards me because of someone else... I wasn't what I was for you before... This situation kept me from going forward, Making it difficult to leave my bed in the morning, Making me hate myself to remember the things I want to erase from my mind... I build a HOME in you, And I wish I didn't have done that....