I Am Just Insane

OCD’s, anxieties, running through my brain Don’t pay any mind to me for I am just insane I am afraid of people and what they think of me Am I what other people want and expected me to be? I don’t think highly of myself and do not wear a crown Negative thoughts and feelings always bringing me down I try to be the best, to live up to expectations But I never can quite get there, bringing me frustrations I never was the coolest; I never was so smooth To bring about the ladies without making a single move I never was the smartest; I stare off into space Within my group of peers, I struggle to find my place I’m not a great example for others to adhere Because my entire life is all controlled by fear I’m not a great musician, not the best at what I play I easily get stage fright; my confidence begins to fray I am not as athletic as the best in all my team Being strong or as fast as them is only just a dream Sometimes I feel inadequate; an alien to the world I feel inside my heart and soul are knotted up in curls But are all these doubts inside my brain only just a scheme A way for all my OCD’s to attack my self-esteem? I do not know. I am not sure. Maybe I should seek help. Or figure this all out on my own; there is no need to yelp OCD’s, anxieties, running through my brain Don’t pay any mind to me for I am just insane