Regina Mcintosh Poet Free verse

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How Many Deaths

I look back to see how many deaths I’ve faced
The dead lie at intervals throughout
My life

Wisdom tells me to not look back
But I can’t keep from turning my head
And staring at the separate deaths
Some horrifying, others merely sad

There are the deaths of sweet promises
That were never able to come to completion
Simply because the person who promised
Was lost amid a world of intoxicating grieving

There are the deaths of lost dreams
That didn’t live past the moment
Leaving me with wounds of yearning
Where there should have been ambition

There are the deaths of old love stories
That couldn’t live through the storms
Making me feel like I’d lost all insight
Into the wonders of a beautiful soul

There are the deaths of friends I’ve loved
Who couldn’t really love me back
So I left them along the way somewhere
Hoping that they would find their heart’s truth

There are the deaths of the years past
When I was so sure that I would stay that way
But found out, on down the road, that I 
Would change beyond what I could have imagined

There are the deaths that were fearful beyond words
The ones that took loved ones on to heaven
Those are the deaths that I struggle to look at
With eyes that truly melt with salty liquid

I look back to see how many deaths I’ve faced
The many times I’ve grieved throughout
And it is all a part of my life
Deaths so fatal and real
At times, I fall apart

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Panagiota Romios October 29, 2019 at 5:23 AM We do lose, we do move on. I gave up counting the losses. Far too many. How potpeticaaly you stated this. Panagiota

Gershon Wolf October 27, 2019 at 10:56 PM Wow! What a moving, honest write. No false 'stiff upper lip.' No 'It's God's will, so I'm actually happy about it' nonsense. God's will IS that we grieve, just as it is to take life at the exact moment He takes it... All beyond our ken, really.... This is just beautiful, Regina! Bravo! Blessings, Gershon