How I Loved You

I may not send you flowers or shower you with gifts. I may not miss you daily or enjoy our weekly tiffs. I may not want to discuss every single feeling felt And I may lose my patience quicker than my heart does melt. I may not be a woman like the ones you knew before I may be more aggressive or a challenge to endure. I may speak too directly and my truth may be too loud. I may have higher standards, yet live beneath the clouds. You may not understand me or register my love You may want someone sweeter, an angel from above. But all I have to offer I’ve given up to you, Hoping you would see me and feel my love was true. I shared my times of weakness, disappointment, fear, and pain. I gave you all my secrets ‘til no mystery remained. I opened up my heart and released the girl within. I bet on our potential, praying we would win. I pushed myself beyond the boundaries I had built. I sacrificed my comfort and let you play my guilt. I told myself a story of a future that would be Rooted in a friendship that allowed more space for me. I saw the soul beneath your insecurity and fear I spoke directly to it, hoping it would hear How much I truly love you and all you truly are And how the world is ready to behold the man you are. But I am merely human and have so much to give, I’ve poured out all my love, but your heart is like a sieve. Now that I am emptied, I must show myself some care And eliminate the struggle to see what remains there.