How Can I Love Again

I fell in love... It was wonderful! I was totally fulfilled, My every day existed for him only. I trusted... I was relieved. Someone to share my deepest thoughts. Someone to appreciate me for myself, Not for who he wanted me to be. I married... I pledged my undying love-for eternity. I cooked and cleaned like a good little wife. I bore his children, This was "our" life. This, I thought.. Was my safe, secure little world. In him I found the one thing I had so longed to have A Friend. He became my only true friend. He knew the secrets, That lay beneath my soul. Soon, he changed... He deceived, abused, and betrayed. He shattered the foundation of our relationship I tried, I cried, but all was ignored. The pain was unbearable. What more can I do? We cease to exist. Communication? No longer! Care? No more! The happiness is gone. Trust- deceased! Affection, passion, and sharing... Did they really exist? I feel stupid, null, and void. I feel used. I trust NO MORE!!! To this part of my life, the part leaving me vulnerable- I close the door. How can I love again? Maybe someday, from deep within...