Hopeless

hopeless even when am sad when i am in shambles, tears running down like a storm in the middle of the ocean i am washed away, no where to be found in my thoughts i am lost, my mind becomes so weak looking to a future with no hope a future so bleak empty, soulless, lifeless body just wondering this world knowing that i gave up my mind stuck in an endless twirl am confused, lost in my actions now doing before i think lacking the stability everyone is born with i am almost at the brink of ending this miserable god forsaken life i call my own for when i look back i was always alone i have created nothing for nothing is all i can do i am faithless, hopeless a blank sheet of paper, through and through and empty glass that sits at a table no replenishment in sight i absorb nothing no message, no passion, no light filled with darkness a room with no doors look through a painted window to a future where nothing seems sure i am without love, without care sure you can see the agony in this as my life walks blindly into a thick and dangerous mist i am hopeless was told that since birth and those are the words i'll carry with me when i finally leave this earth!