Hopeless

How often will I turn my head
                                       reaching for your voice
                               bidding my feet to walk away
                                      (as if I had a choice)?
                            
                               How long will I eat thunder
                        --  like I'm  squirreling from the law--
                                   guilty and disgusted
                                 throat scalded raspy raw?
                      
                                    How many nights 
                                    will my hand
                                                 shake 
                                       clutching a new-cut key--
                                 opening a deadbolt door
                                  that now is home to me?
                           
                                
                                      How long will I be tethered
                                            to a life without a chance?
                                      You are calm and ruthless
                                        and this heartbreak's just a dance!

                                  I don’t know why I’'m back again--
                                     can't fight off love's attack--
                               
                                    Your eyes burn like blue blazes
                                    And there is no turning back.



V. Anderson-Throop 2015©
Valdez, Alaska USA

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Darlene Gifford

Date: 5/18/2015 10:32:00 AM

Good morning Victoria, I just finished reading your poem (Banging) and went on to read this one. It is a tragic mystery why we love the ones that we are not compatible with. I liked your line, "as if we had a choice." I think your poem will connect with many women. Thanks for reading my poem. I notice you have not posted anything in months. Are you ok? Blessings, Darlene

Victoria Anderson-Throop
Date: 5/23/2015 5:01:00 AM

Darlene, Thanks for taking the time to read my work. You are the first person to inquire after me. No, I have not been well. I have been battling depression and PTSD for many years--for 20 years I didn't write a sentence--then I took up my pen, but every day is a struggle. Victoria