Hope

The phone rings innocently.
Who is at the other side?
Could be no one then yet a peculiar feeling tells
me it is the bearer of bad news.
Still I answer hoping I am wrong.
My mother is ill, trapped between two worlds; 
the worlds of fear and courage.
My ears hear every word but my mind has created a 
sudden barrier that nothing seems to
penetrate like some sort of
steel web of unwanted denial.
Fear floods my body like a torrent
river flow, eroding strength
and stability.
How much longer can I bare it?
Never it seems but hope still glimmers 
regardless of how dim.
Miles are between us, 
I feel numb and unexpectedly lost.
Where am I?
It’s certainly not here in the presence 
of fallen angels.
The bell of hope strikes a sharp note creating a 
gentle chime awaking my
senses to the news,
they are sharpened making
the fear of loss suddenly
commanding, corrupting my
inner strength making it weak.
I continue to listen all the 
while my body is screaming
in protest.
The voice stopped, I hung up,
the pain and fear never lessened.
Time went by all the while my
mind was constantly in a state
of anguish and grief.
Endless stories were created,
each one worse than the last.
My family begun to shatter like
a broken mirror, reflecting only
the scars of misery and needless
hurt.
Hope still glimmered but appeared
distant and out of reach.
My mind grew tender, endless misery
has eaten away at my last thoughts
of happiness.
The sting of fear created heartache
for the bond between mother and child
was nearly severed,
severed by the hands of
an unwanted deity.
A deity of life itself.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2011

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April 24, 2011 at 1:12 PM
Leighann ;-) CONGRATULATIONS!! on your poem being featured this week, hope your enjoying your Easter Sunday. Take care and have a nice one,..p.d
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April 19, 2011 at 11:34 AM
Congratulations on your poetry being featured this week Leighann. Love, Carol
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April 19, 2011 at 7:18 AM
Congratulations on your poem being featured this week, Leighann. I hope all is well with you. Lovingly, Dane Ann
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April 18, 2011 at 12:37 PM
Conmgratulations on your poem being featured this week, Leighann
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February 14, 2011 at 10:22 AM
your new here as i can finally see. poems this long usually force my eyes to close. but you have the gift and it comes from God. you read like a good book and your words are poetry. you get to be on my fav poet list today. i put only the best there. and other soupers will tell you i am a brutal critic. i'm taking you under my arm. anything you need to know ask me and i'll do the best i can. can i be your friend on this valentines day 2011. do you know how to soup mail yet? well can we?
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February 11, 2011 at 7:40 AM
Welcome to the site. This is not a bad way to start. This is decently descriptive.
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