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Tell me that its over, if it really was, it couldn’t hurt. Tell me why these tears keep falling, though I’m tying to forget, though I’m trying to stay strong. I try to keep the pain away, by filling myself again. You say they can only harm me, but it feels so good right now. I cant keep going like this, but you don’t seem to want to save me. Its getting the best of me, and I only want it to stop. I don’t belong in this hate, in this pain. I want to go home, take me home. You say this is it, but its only a house to me. I’m screaming now, take me home. I want to go, I need to go. Why don’t you take me home? This cant be all there is. I choke on the words, they stay in my throat. I close my eyes, I cant get them out. No one seems to notice, if they do, then they don’t care. You’re only a spirit in the attic, you cant help me now. Why did you leave? Why cant you make me better now? Please tell me to drink my teas, to soothe the pain, to heal the scars. This train isn’t passing. I don’t belong in this hate, in this pain. I want to go home, take me home. You say this is it, but its only a house to me. I’m screaming now, take me home. I want to go, I need to go. Why don’t you take me home? This cant be all there is. Its so cold, I’m damp from the rain. Its hard to tell it from the tears, it all just feels the same. I crawl to bed, for a little safety, before I cry again. Trying to sleep, rescue myself from me. The lights are off, im scared of the dark, I’m scared of what’s out there. The creatures you created, the hate that brews in the clouds. Why am I alone? Why are you stuck to the chains? I don’t belong in this hate, in this pain. I want to go home, take me home. You say this is it, but its only a house to me. I’m screaming now, take me home. I want to go, I need to go. Why don’t you take me home? This cant be all there is. They cant understand me, I think that’s just my way. But why didn’t you show me the better ways, the things that could have changed my fate? I cant run away, even though they don’t need me, but I want to leave, so desperately. I cant cut, and I can’t fake, and I don’t want to cry. Take me home, that’s all I want. Just take me away, back to my home.