Holiday Tears

'Tis Christmas time once again
  And much to my everlasting chagrin
I cannot seem to stop the tears
 No matter the passing years.

Christmas used to be such fun
 The kids up before the rising sun.
Smiles, giggles, and what not
 To see what Santa had brought.

Wrapping paper everywhere
 No one had a single care
For it was Christmas Day
 Their one day to just play.

I awake now with a groan
 As now I feel I  am all alone.
No visible happiness to share
 Nothing, but this utter despair.

There is no imminent joy
 Neither tree nor even a toy
As this day, yet again is here
 I clearly have no holiday cheer.

At work I do smile
 But nothing worthwhile
As you look into my eyes
 The smile is one of many lies.

No one seems to care
 About my growing despair
Or have I kept it hid so well
 That no one sees my secret hell?

Whatever the case may be
 Pain will not let go of me.
There are no happy cheers
For me, there is just these holiday tears.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2009

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Loving Iii Avatar
January 29, 2010 at 1:03 PM
you'll get over it. we all do. i've spent so many holidays alone by my choice. and i call it a day of rest. everybody thinks at everybodys house when i'm at home in bed. but one thing the holiday did bring. this beautiful piece you have writen sad but beautiful none the less. yours john
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December 19, 2009 at 10:08 AM
It must be very difficult to adjust to this "empty nest" syndrome, Kristy, and you can't really hide these emotions. Although I wasn't blessed with children, there is comfort to be found in joining other families over the holidays. I hope you will find your way to a loving home where children are reveling in the joy on Christmas Day. God bless you. Love, carolyn
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