Hole In My Soul

theres a hole in my soul feel numb and cold damn am i going insane there is only rage and pain maybe i'm not to understand cause i'm only just a man mixed thoughts, insecurities this what becomes me try an try to explain my thoughts and words just go in vain no one believes in me no one will understand just do what i do if i can i can always was told we aint worried bout you knew i would find a way to get through so many struggles trouble and strife make me just want just end my life surprised, even the strong get weak too imagine if thats what i wanted to do who would miss me whom would care go around every day like i'm not there just wanna be free no more pain for you or me everything i've done would be gone if you love me give a chance to speak cant keep holdin it in rage begins to seep sometimes cant explain what i did stuff for mind always going feel like a mental whore feel like i'm trapped in my mind feel like i'm lost stuck and behind stop running a long time ago trouble follows whever i go everything i touch turns to crap people you love seem to get out the trap lost and turned out sream at the sky i always shout WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO!!!!!!! HOW MUCH MORE DO I GOTTA GO THRU!!!!!!!! CANT YOU SEE MY PAIN MY MISERY or are you just laughing at me there is a hole in my soul that just wont heal too much to handle dont know whats real cant take back anything i've said writings on the wall an its all red God dont let my seed be like me messed up and lost for all eternity No one can look in my eyes an really see the pain just consumes me tell you i'm ok but i'm really not stay to myself continue to just rot where is the place where i can be free not a place but inside me so filled with stife and agony nothing seems to matter or get to me but it does you see not gonna burden not one soul just lost an hurt with this hole.........................