Him

I thought it was over. I thought, "this is the end." But looking back, I realize That was just the push To find who really I am. You cannot control my thoughts Nor my feelings. You cannot control me. Ever again. I realize now that you were simply a stepping stone. I won't say if it was up or down. It made me my own person. It made me make decisions for myself. I have my own life now. I don't have to spend it pleasing you. He hasn't replaced you. No one can. Because you see I never loved you. I thought I did. I always made excuses For your behavior toward me. I don't have to make excuses for him. I don't need to justify why he's treating me so horrible. Because he doesn't. No, he didn't replace you. No one can. He completely obliterated you. You are nothing to me. Because he has shown me what love really is. You are nothing There's no room for you to be something. Because he is everything. He taught me that Love doesn't hurt Love doesn't make you hate yourself Love does make you cry yourself to sleep. What we had wasn't love. It was loving the idea of being in love. I never loved you. You should like him too. He wrestled in high school. He even likes getting a little tipsy Every now and again. Yeah, you two would be good friends. I'm glad you weren't though Because then I would've never met him. He's my best friend. I could never say that about you. I love him and I tell him everyday. I could never tell you. Yeah, you should like him too. Because of him, I don't hate you anymore. I forgive you for everything And that's a miracle.