Help Me

I need your help today before I fall apart
I seem to have lost a part of me 
Can u help me find it and make a new start

Who do I call onto when nobody is there
Who can I confide in 
It seems that nobody would care

When will it get better does this pain ever go away
I fall asleep hoping tomorrow will be better
But it’s the same everyday

There are no words to describe these feelings I don’t understand at all
Mixed emotions which vary
An overwhelming emptiness inside of me causing me to fall

I’ve built up walls without any means to break free
I’ve closed all the windows tightly
And now I am trapped inside of me

The walls were slowly built throughout the years and discreetly set in stone
Invisible cement and bars which can not be broken 
I built it and yet I had never known

Slowly inside I disintegrated dissolving into an empty shell that I can not bare
Everything I once cherished became obsolete 
As I began to not care

This painful numbness knocks me to my knees
I do not know where to begin
I am asking for your help please

Somehow I have lost myself and do not know where to look
How do I find the strength that I need
Is it possible to get my happiness back that my sadness took

How do I repair these feelings that I can’t describe or understand
It’s as if I’m living with multiple people inside of me
But none of them comfort me or hold my hand 

They battle each other in a war that can not be won
They all are so different 
Yet I can not relate to even one

A stranger to myself and invisible to those I see
They ignore the warning signs
And pretend not to notice the tears which are drowning me

I try to inhale but am suddenly unable to catch my breath
I gasp for some air
As I fall to my knees pleading for my own death

A broken puzzle that I struggle to complete 
Filled with random pieces that I can not match
I want to walk away but I can not feel my feet

I want to run away and escape it all but I do not know where to begin
I am stalked by demons
And they block the entrance for the angels to get in

I find myself staggering unable to walk a straight line
The path is uncertain 
Can u help me find the one that is mine
Copyright © | Year Posted 2018


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