Hello Walls

Hello Walls, do you mind if I talk to you quickly? You've seen the real me so I don't need to make it pretty Can I paint my ugly truths over you in a beautiful colour? Hello Walls, do you mind if I talk to you quickly? I'm not Bon Jovi I'm not living on a prayer I'm battling depression and living a nightmare Trying to overcome it without giving in to my fears I cry on the pad, while sharing wisdom with my tears My tears transform into words, and they become people's favourite quotes I'm the voice for those who got laughed at when they spoke I write to inspire others and make sure I survive myself I've been numb, but my words are felt You've seen me at my worst, when I used to self-harm and pick a blade up Lock myself in the house for months on end and the door stays shut It was just me and you, with numerous booty calls I felt you judging me, because I could never give a girl my all I was distant to feelings and would avoid love I promised to call these girls knowing I never would I had the pen and pad but was scared to make my own chapters How could I give my all to anything when Depression had me captured? One night stand after one night stand Girl after girl, but none were in my life plans I wasn't a playa, I was using these girls as a bandage Because while they were next to me, my pain would vanish Some would leave their underwear, just so they had a reason to come back I used to talk to you, like why have they done that? They can do better, no one deserves someone as messed up as me Sex became so easy to get, it no longer felt like a luxury I don't know why, but females seemed to love this broken man I'd push them away, and they'd still embrace me with open hands One or 2, judged when they felt my scars, others say I melt their heart When I look back at who I was, I judge myself so hard You've seen me grow and how far I've come You've been with me the whole time, you've seen what I've done No one knows me the way you do Goodbye walls, I've got nothing more to say to you Hello Walls, do you mind if I talk to you quickly? You've seen the real me so I don't need to make it pretty Can I paint my ugly truths over you in a beautiful colour? Hello Walls, do you mind if I talk to you quickly?