Hearts Decay

I hear the words that are spoken To understand them I do not I feel the pain that's unspoken As my heart has cut them off ~?~ To many promises were broken As the lies kept being said My mind remains unbroken But my heart is surely dead ~?~ Trampled on by many This I'll not forget They say that there is plenty But my heart will have to shed ~?~ The bubble that now surrounds me Protects my heart itself The noose that hangs above me Hangs with deadly stealth ~?~ Forgiving is said to be easy But not for the damaged heart It holds on to the negative For the mind controls this part ~?~ To find the closure needed To be on my merry way I hope I find that open door Before I find my death day ~?~ For the heart will surely heal Is what they always say But my heart is broken It is dead and has turned A deep dark gray ~?~ The mind will keep me going In ways I do not know It has become the liar That's now ecstasy to my soul ~?~ I pray to Thee above me To return my heart of gold I fear that He has left me In the streets all alone ~?~ If He's truly listens I think I'd like to say Though my heart may be broken My love for Him will never decay R.K.H