Heartbroken But Still Breathing

Laying beneath the stars and moon Hoping that you would join me soon I cried and cried till my body grew weak, Leaving the tear stains on my cheeks. I wanted to be happy and know pure joy I wanted to be able to not have my hurt used as a toy I wanted to be able to have someone kiss me so soft I wanted to be able to have time stop I held myself tight wondering what I would say When I ran into you the next day For that kiss made me wonder if my life was really right Or if I simply fought for nothing visible in the light I wished I could have changed it and had pushed you away I wished I could have changed it and had seen ahead that day I wished I had never cared or thought of what might be I wished I had never cared of what you thought of me I shook all over with chills from the cold night air Wondering to myself if you had ever actually cared Sobbing hard again as I seen my mistakes Realizing deep within it was all just fake I hoped that now you were happy for making me love you I hoped that now you were happy for making me want my life to be threw I hoped that now it was easy to sit and see me sad I hoped that now it was easy to tell I’m not really mad And even though my heart is broken and I know the wounds will heal I sit here beside the grave crying, forever missing you still And as the lightening lit the sky I felt warmth in my pain I knew that though here that pain was eased it will soon return again