Heartbreaker

I was innocent, my heart was pure, Until you stepped in, with your remarkable allure, You influenced me, made me pine, For things that weren’t mine Gullible that I was, I thought with my heart, Regardless of the plan to tear me apart I let my feelings take me over, Like the carefree bud of a flower I loved you, your nature, your laugh, I trusted you with my everything, like a warm winter scarf You were my light, my unquestionable support My Rock of Gibraltar, where only Truth held Fort And then, abruptly, the blanket was torn away from my eyes On that devilish night, when I was torn apart, Plagued by dishonor, surrounded by lies My world crashed around me, and nameless grief tore at my heart It was a unique experience, which left me naked, and alone, I felt as powerless, as emotionless as a stone Shock and denial had taken hold, I was lost in the darkness, the relentless cold A changed man, tempered by bitterness, is what I’ve become For all of you in happiness, I’d like some A reminder of what could be, to escape the truth, of what I’ve become A reject, a nomad, just a guy in search of love You hurt me, you destroyed me, you tore me apart Well, you won, but I’ll recover, part by part Trust no longer freely given, I react with skeptism To all peripheral feelings of altruism A hard shell, an impenetrable stone,is what I’ve become, Where no flattery shall beat its drum Banned are human emotions, no longer shall they hold sway They are to be banished, driven far, far away I live in a lonely, tempered world, A life of solitude, bereft of feelings, none to be sold A reality of numbers and facts, of clear, unblemished precision, Life, death are constants, in the order of distribution It would all be fine, but for my traitorous heart, That shall always love you, A reminder of my failings, my mistakes, That convinced you to drive us apart You will find your peace in the arms of another, But what of me…..did you even bother? Its all for one, but it ain’t one for all I thought love a gift, as I never saw myself fall Call me foolish, call me wretched, For I shall always have hope, That God will give me what I deserve A solution, a balm, a life to preserve For there ain’t no glory to be got in pain No umbrella, to stop the rain That patters unforgivingly around me, As I bleed tears, again and again And yet again………