Healing Heart

The pain you feel when dementia hits, Is unlike any other pain I believe that exists, Whether slow or at a fast pace they forget more and more, While you're fighting to keep their memories alive but inside you mourn, Holding onto the love while pretending not to show pain, The alcohol erasing the memory of the entire relationship you've gained, Until your seeing a shell of a man you once knew, Forgetting all the love they shared with you, The closeness you once had is completely gone, And every fiber of your being wants to hold on, And the pain becomes so deep you can't even reach, And all you can do is pray for him to remember anything, It's like talking to someone you're meeting for the first time, All the years of love you shared are erased in their mind, And it is if they have died right in front of your face, And you beg God to heal him every single day, And then you work in the same atmosphere day in and day out, Searching for remedies, for anything that might help, And when you see a ray of light in that darkened room, It is the fuel that tells you not to give up so soon, So you keep going, because you don't give up on the love, Until you realize that this isn't enough, Until you must sacrifice in ways you never thought you could, Because if it was your choice you never would, And then your told you have to heal and start over again, And you never thought you would be single or alone in the end,