He Was Before I Was

Born into sin, Was I the next of kin? Pain and agony arrived, Yet I could have moved on, unlike Lot's wife. Was this His plan? To make my life feel purposeless? No, I got it all wrong; it was to make me understand His faithfulness. All He did was to teach me how great He is. Time and time, I'd spend my life blaming, instead of facing Him and seeing the bigger picture, which I couldn't figure. Yet again, He proved that He was before I was. Who am I to point fingers when I couldn't stay faithful to my word, listening to what I heard instead of what He said? I failed to do the one thing He asked: to follow His will. And yet He chose me still, because He was before I was.