He Never Loved Me

He never loved me Well damn I just found out Took a shot to the heart Don't know where I should start I guess I musta been strung out Cuz I was straight up on his arm flashing that smile like aint no brother like the one I got Saying girl I'm so lucky You just jealous Whatchu mean he's cheating Ahh shut yo mouth Making plans, writing poetry, letting his hands be one with me He was free to play games with me With my identity When he was through with me I barely recognized who she was cuz she was not me But I was forever high See I I planned our wedding in my mind a million times Yeah I said we'd name our first kid Tasha Or prolly Sasha Even after his great grand aunt Hadassah Kiki or prolly Eloise He could bend me over To his whim or his fancy Deeply committed was I To this guy I didn't care about the why I just cared about his smile How his face would light up when he saw me And just how it was all so wild Mild was never a part of our loving heavy from the get nicca always had me coming To him constantly running to him Gunning for him Loving just him Giving never ex-pec-ting He didn't love me See I just found out One day it came to me when I was walking around the house It came to me How I'd put his needs before mine Put ma money on his hustle Saying everything would be fine Cuz I would be-ne-fit Joint bank accounts Cleared out savings Warning signs begged me to put an end to the ish But I just couldn't quit I could not forget He was that 9-5 that I just could not leave So I worked tirelessly hoping the boss would recognize My efforts and promote me. Promote me? Dumb me Strung out Oh boy kinda good turn out Everyone showed up but sanity Cuz I musta been crazy to letchu play me and sway me to your mindset Wet, my heart with regret turned me cold a reject Deject-ted I stayed that way for centuries Soul moment suffering through comments Holding on to moments Dead to emotion to me anomaly He never loved me WELLL I JUST FOUND OUT I was silly blind trying to find Reasons for his indiscretions His lack of confession Why he never let me in Musta been ma sins saying be more forgiving. He never loved me.