Having the Heart

Down and out, I’ve been there many times before But I’ve sworn to myself to never be there anymore Being alone, with no one else to lend me a loving ear No more happy thoughts, no smiles, no more cheer Nightmares invade every time I try to go to sleep Wondering how I ever let myself get in so damn deep Feeling this dread above me like a cold and angry fog Feeling no better than an orphaned and ugly dog Years have gone by and I have grown so much Feeling that happiness is just within my clutch It took me a while to learn how to trust again It was so long ago since I’ve had a friend No one in my life has really been kind to me For I was a transient, a nobody you see But something inside wouldn’t let me just die It forced me to wake up, get up and to try I came out of my shell of hate and disgust I no longer confused love with sex and lust I realized good people were here among us So for only myself I knew that I must Draw from the power of my will and guts And draw myself out of the ditches and ruts Having the heart to turn your whole life around Means that for bigger and better things you’re bound