Haven'T You Ever

haven't you ever fallen for someone that you'd rip your own heart out for them, or take another's life for them? Haven't you ever loved someone that meant the world over to you and one day it was all gone, that spark, that flame that feeling... All of it gone and now all is wrong shivers in the night no one to call on Everything you know has gone mad and all day you feel sad. Leaving one place and arriving at another and you see her or him sitting at a café table with her or him, your heart caves in and hot blood boils in your veins as cool chills run down your spine. I had a heart attack a thousand times over, falling to the ground clenching my chest crying out "it's over!" All alone... I am depressed, nothing but sitting in a white room reading dead poets that don't interest me anymore, friends are goners in this world I can't find one to listen to me, and family the ones who are suppose to be there are with their own families, wives and children all running a muck and I'm not invited to any of the parties. I vomited yesterday and all I saw was black, yet such a clean soul has nothing to freight still I've seen dark days and clear nights but nothing comes out like the sun at night.