Haunted

I'm being haunted by demons I thought I'd buried Depression is leading me to a dark place again and I'm worried Suicidal thoughts I thought I moved past, came back with no remorse I'm being tortured by depression, I'm tired of all these thoughts Depression is my toughest opponent, but I'm fighting as hard as I can Why do people focus on my flaws and scars instead of the heart of this man? Anytime I attacked Depression, it was me who bled Some days I barely even have the strength to get out of bed I've lost a lot of people because of it, and I know I'm going to lose more I try my best to spread love even though I'm fighting this war Bipolar, combined with depression and anxiety, makes it hard for my mind to be peaceful I'm better off alone, depression tells me I'm not worthy of being around people I fear love, I fear hugs,I fear trust, because they only lead to pain and darkness We don't bleed the same, I'm heartless It got broken so many times, I stopped trying to fix it Seeing my dad put the drink down, was the only thing on my wish list But he couldn't, I guess I wasn't important enough for him to do that Spent most my childhood, inside of a foster home, wondering where my dad was at Would I have these problems, if my parents loved me and cared? I prefer to sleep, because my life is nothing but ugly nightmares I slept with so many girls, to feel a connection, but I couldn't love They just get offended when I tell them I don't like hugs But my parents never gave me a hug, and I can't hold you, while depression has a hold of me I'm Haunted by demons, that are trying to claim the soul of me I'm being haunted by demons I thought I'd buried Depression is leading me to a dark place again and I'm worried Suicidal thoughts I thought I moved past, came back with no remorse I'm being tortured by depression, I'm tired of all these thoughts