Haunted

Clutching the edges of the mirror I screamed in silence "I see you, I know you are there! Show yourself." Grief welled up inside as my swollen heart constricted; expelling ache in one single tear that sped down my crimson cheek. Stale cigarette smoke lingered in the hallway, yes she was here all right! Her soft words murmured and echoed off the walls as spiders hugged their cozy winter corners. The air parted slightly as I heard a whisper, “I love you, I’ll always be with you.” I know she is here, I hear her in my own voice as I whimper and shout "I love you mummy, mummy, mummy", as I always did sing out in her praise. Remembering how she held back her last tears as did I on that day. Moments that I curse as it was so unnatural full knowing there would be no more hugs and hellos. The good bye was loud as it screamed in the absence of the tears that were forced so very far back . With a lump in my throat I winced out that one last fake smile. I turned away choking on my dry thick sorrow, trying as best I could to swallow the loss. My throat was closing in; I couldn't breathe out one last turn back over my shoulder. My eyes glazed over as my heart filled with tears. I never thought I’d bear witness to my first, my last and my final goodbye. Written by Corrina