Half-Fast Fun

Part One of the Fun Series...read Part Two, Full-blast Fun, please (thank you) -JWE Sleepless, unprepared… Floating repeatedly in outer space, it tremendously, horribly feels… Flared-up and so scared… Avoiding hurtful, bothersome everything, so I made a few peace deals Made a few peace deals I listen to Sia on iHeartRadio She understands me, I know I know so…going to and fro Wishing though, you know so You know so with an all-knowing blow Speak something to me, Lord of love and everything good Feel like dying miserably Feeling unbearably misunderstood Each night drags on and on by I want to disappear for awhile That’s why I walk away, I will try To keep it positive, run that mile Run that mile with a sunlit smile Pardon my gutter mouth that utter perversity I know I am lost from North to South, can’t deny I don’t want to be one with my evil adversary I want to be an eternity with God Most High Sorry, that was somewhat random Had to let that all out, talking about Of my mind that’s exceedingly numb It pounds upon me grief without a doubt Without a doubt, running that route Listening to music… Lyrics of lament and lost love Fill and thrill my ears I forget what I often think of Thought up for years Run away, yesterday's sadness I pray I wanted to stay and with you, stray Guess I couldn’t resist sinning…sorry… No one said life will be a breeze, let it be.. Happy all the days of our lives And all the nights that deprives Us of uplifting feels, notions and moods… Borrow God's mighty greater goods I need vital, vibrant vibes to fulfill me You need that to…and this Love to be free Flee from me and shun it all away – The shyness and distress and what may When are you done with being first place? Embrace grace from the Lord from the start Till you meet the very end of the finish line… I got mine, you’re fine, you’re finely mixed wine The more I’m away from you, The less of what remains of me And my happy-go-luckiness So long, making grand progress Drenched in silence By these silent wars I keep fighting in resilience… Can’t resist, picking at these sores… These sores of long-lost wishes of soaring… These waterfalls of wondrous things keep pouring Against all of me and all you Can’t help, being around you What is right and wrong in your eyes? Maybe I shouldn’t know…your truth and lies With sweat on my forehead, I will pick the scab of dread… Instead of…half-done on the run Searching for unfulfilled love, how fun….. Half-fast fun – a trillion times a trillion Need change after change too...just a ton… You make me cringe Stop, hon..or I’ll turn the hinge Like you did – A bye-bye bid That’s why…I hid… Need more lies to rid Like an incognito, internet vid Yeah, I said it, I am David