Guilty Conscience

Head pounding Heart breaking you feel that shake the earth is quakeing "I will stand alone" What the hell was I thinking Ending every chance for friendship See all this hate I've been making I seek forgiveness A new quest I'm taking But to open up and fall The result will be devastating I'm stuck not knowing what to do This battle is never ending And it seems that no matter what I do My good intentions are failing If I should break again It'll be as tragic as a train derailing But I can't risk fighting this war alone Look at all these children They all deserve a home Something I don't deserve but got These kids need help And I want to provide alot Church missionaries doing all they can When they ask for help We should all lend a hand I'm tired of hearing about it I want to do something about it But I can't without help I'm useless without it I need to decide who I am The mean loner I seem to be Or the nice loving kid my parents used to see The world is cold People will stab you in the back Its happened so many times to me That I wont risk going through that All it is is a fear Stopping me from doing A task that  I hold dear A huge pain in my rear But during every homeless comercial I see Down my face runs a tear The guilt that I was saved And so many wasn't And the thought of helping them all Sure seems so pleasant But its friendship and help I'm lacking Instead of each other Its poverty we should be attacking