Growing Up

Growing up, thinking I'm going to be something, As I kept wondering and wondering. Im 18 and I'm ready to leave the house, I say Parent said, Go one your way. Growing up in this little world, Crowded by people and it still fells as if I am still a little girl. Everyday I wondered what I was going to eat, Did not have no clothes on my back, When I left the house, I thought I was going to live big, But the lowest rent payment was to live in a shack. I did not have no soap to bath with, On Christmas, no I didn't bother to give me no gifts. I didn't have no socks on my feet to keep me warm, But the little fire I built didn't do me no harm. As Christmas and Valentine passed by, I felt as if I was going to die. I felt as if my soul was going to pass me on buy, My heart bumped quicker and quicker, As my bones started to get weaker and weaker. As I took my last breath of thin air, I knew when I died no one would care. Before my eyes closed, for me to die, I thought back and I asked myself why? I thought that me growing up and getting out the house would last, But then I thought I Grew Up to Fast! I said to myself, I guest this was a test, I closed my eyes and laid to rest.