Groundswell of Emotional Blessedness

(thank you All Poetry, Facebook, family Poetry Soup,... et cetera global friends.) A network of cherished kinships allied forged, and linkedin analogous to union of groom and bride thru electronic bonds engender intrigue, nonetheless unconditionally accept, no matter I chide self, and reference mine existence as if...this mortal already died now more appreciative than ever, cuz younger days witnessed peers that did elide me accompanied with relentless teasing, snubbing, roasting akin tubby kindled over a fireside, thus...solitude shadowed me as sole guide peopled with books to escape and hide from so called "real" webbed world, yet inside this former grievous lad through alienation, emasculation, and isolation no joyride valuing myself less than a pawn on chessboard of life envying extrovert as kingside station depriving, insulating, and ostracizing yours truly belied to Matthew Scott Harris marginally functioning, and denied him camaraderie, dating, enjoying female friendships due to lack of confidence and pride and at the cusp of pubescence...a slow descending ride into the hungry (anorexic) maws of suicide, which ideations hammer psyche, now aghast how I tried (without success) to disappear sundering mine complex edifice into the wide abyss of nothingness, hence to treasure those electronic connections, perhaps...totally no more'n four score (and seven years ago) all told of unbeknown village people comprising worthy chums, sans human league roar ring (okay pardon the hyperbole), but letting this foo fighter explore a greater range of interpersonal (no matter virtual), but each unnamed cyber buddy worth more than simple rhyming galore words express, some or all those who sprung from Earth, wind and fire, viz cosmic toreador this poet would their physical presence adore, who realizes genuine experienced love second best option communicated thru the Internet...bonjour, hence please accept at the least (even thee lovely cousins, daughters, sister Shari por favor, a hug emanating from within mine integrated central processing unit core!