Grieving Goodbye

One step I go back, and I see you holding my hands... With a smile, walking down the lanes. Yesterday I acquainted me in you When your hands grabbed mine in your fears With such reliance, allaying down the pains. And Today when I stood still I saw myself lost in despair When my hands sorely waved you goodbye. Another step I go back, and I see you resting on my shoulder With an ease, breathing out all your whimseys. Yesterday I held myself in you When you hugged me in your tenderness With such peace, grieving away all the hearsays. And Today when I fastened myself I felt I betrayed your trust When my arms direly opened to free your life. Further I stepped to go back, and I see you lying up on me abreast With an intimacy, desiring all your fondness. Yesterday I mellowed my soul in yours' When you lusted me in your reverences With such warmth, melting down all the iciness. And Today when I lie down I realized I burnt my essence When my deity hollered out to coffined my soul. Yet I wanted to go back, and I see my shadow fading out slowly under the daylight With such isolation, deafing all those mirthful moments. Yesterday I was in a state of solitude Till I acquainted with your heart and soul With such reliance, peace and warmth, gratifying all forbearance. And Today I am back, where I was I raged as it was hard to believe When my heart panicked to say you GOOD-BYE.