Goodnight, Year of Change

Snow whispered unto me "Nothing remains static" Yet I remained completely still While I shoveled the snow away Second month frozen gave way to warmth From passion, from anger From a wealth of confusing events And spending it all in a volcano Burnt out in the cold I shelved my axe once again Stuck down in a rut I let the melting snow sail me home The new leaves bravely sprung to life As I let the breeze take me wherever All bent to my will As the ending of something great came upon me I waved my savior goodbye Setting out back to home Returning to the promised land so shortly after To while away my time in peace I waved my lover goodbye As she flew far out over the sea And as my body fell apart I demanded ever more from it Everything fell apart Bedridden and heartbroken, I cried alone Oh, how I wish I could have cried Oh, how I wish I could have died Back on my feet again, huh? I spent the month as I spent the last But with hope instead of despair With a spirit formed from thin air Back in the saddle again, huh? In my absence, I became a legend With a lack of self, I fell to despair I couldn't bear to fall again From the grim jaws of death, I found hope again I watched the winds of gray paint my world red And yellow and brown As the leaves began to fall again Freezing once again, I went back home In the car of someone I didn't know In the happy memories of someone I'll never know Or ever choose to see again A despairing year's hopeful ending As everything I see before me crumbles and rusts But I see the color between the gray Even if no one wants to see it that way