Goodbye

Finished i’ve been dragging around this life too long Done everything I wanted, I had. I did. Don’t want to wait for it to end too long too long Taking things into my own hands again the right way the way it Used to be Saying goodbye to this life not to people not to places just to this life which was so long ago begun not in love but lust and then bit by bit it was ripped and shredded until I could no longer tolerate it This life. So done. so through with it all. The decisions I am not capable of making yet others thought I was just being stubborn. Unable to think the way others do. To be capable of processing information in some fashion that I cannot. Too bad nobody cares. I used to bring so much to the table. Hurts to breathe to think to exist anymore Don’t want to. and that’s My Choice. If I can be so “grownup as to make choices yourself” Than I Will Let my legacy be that once, and then many times, I was hurt damaged beyond repair. Something was also passed through genes that messed up my brain. Took up space, made my children suffer. I Know All Of This and I can no longer live with it. So I can say goodbye cleanly and without frivolous bull**** or useless people trying to convince me otherwise so they feel better Goodbye life. Goodbye to my beautiful sons. Goodbye to the man that I loved I hope I see you all on the other side a long time from now My prayer is for peace and beauty for them and calm and no more crazy mother to cause troubles Just free and open space to be to do whatever you need and without me in your way goodbye for now...