Good-Bye God
Good-Bye God
One day I fell into a well of despair
Why God does no one care
I am finally at the end of my rope
For me there is no hope
My only sin was looking at the pretty girl
Her face more beautiful than a pearl
Want, Desire, Lust
If only I could have won her trust
I asked her to release me
She smiled and stared
But refused to set me free
Obsessive thoughts way to deep
Mind and soul heartbreak weep
But I now know I will never have her
I fear soon I will be dancing with cadavers
I long for death eternal peace
Only then will this female obsession cease
I was taught it is wrong to take a life
The priest told me to find a wife
So this is the end
The damage I will soon do will never mend
Should I die by gun, noose, bottle or pill
Or take a leap from a high hill
Maybe God will send me a sign
Maybe a Heavenly Angel will throw me a line
Soon my suicide will fill Satan with pride
My Soul in the Lake of Fire will hide
Did Jesus ever Love me I cried
I can't go on like this
This Blonde Temptress
Robbed me of all bliss
Her beauty tormenting my soul and mind
Unholy woman kind
So I slowly put the gun to my head and said
Soon I will be dead
Good-Bye God
Now I am really going to blow my wad
But wait a voice said
Putting lead in your head will turn your rug red
The only thing that can save your mind and soul
Is to write your way out of this Obsession Hell Hole
God why did you put me down here
At the bottom living in fear
I must write of these bastard evil thoughts
The Devil tried but my soul can not be bought
I will not let the demons win
I shall not kill myself it is a sin
So now I will become a writer
Keep writing mental fighter
Even if my written words make no sense
Writing makes the mind less tense
Someday my obsession will be lighter
With Heavenly Help
My future will become brighter
So
Damm the Demons
I’m through scream’n
God thank you for finally making my mental suffering go away
So I can stay here a little longer and play
And if no one ever reads my words
At least writing has made my mind
As free as a bird
Joseph Adam Elward
Copyright © Joseph Elward | Year Posted 2010
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