Good-Bye God

Good-Bye God One day I fell into a well of despair Why God does no one care I am finally at the end of my rope For me there is no hope My only sin was looking at the pretty girl Her face more beautiful than a pearl Want, Desire, Lust If only I could have won her trust I asked her to release me She smiled and stared But refused to set me free Obsessive thoughts way to deep Mind and soul heartbreak weep But I now know I will never have her I fear soon I will be dancing with cadavers I long for death eternal peace Only then will this female obsession cease I was taught it is wrong to take a life The priest told me to find a wife So this is the end The damage I will soon do will never mend Should I die by gun, noose, bottle or pill Or take a leap from a high hill Maybe God will send me a sign Maybe a Heavenly Angel will throw me a line Soon my suicide will fill Satan with pride My Soul in the Lake of Fire will hide Did Jesus ever Love me I cried I can't go on like this This Blonde Temptress Robbed me of all bliss Her beauty tormenting my soul and mind Unholy woman kind So I slowly put the gun to my head and said Soon I will be dead Good-Bye God Now I am really going to blow my wad But wait a voice said Putting lead in your head will turn your rug red The only thing that can save your mind and soul Is to write your way out of this Obsession Hell Hole God why did you put me down here At the bottom living in fear I must write of these bastard evil thoughts The Devil tried but my soul can not be bought I will not let the demons win I shall not kill myself it is a sin So now I will become a writer Keep writing mental fighter Even if my written words make no sense Writing makes the mind less tense Someday my obsession will be lighter With Heavenly Help My future will become brighter So Damm the Demons I’m through scream’n God thank you for finally making my mental suffering go away So I can stay here a little longer and play And if no one ever reads my words At least writing has made my mind As free as a bird Joseph Adam Elward