Gone Schizo

I have schizoaffective disorder and everywhere I go I'm frightened. Even a leisurely walk all my senses are so heightened! The other day I passed a wrapper of Oreo cookies... I felt this was planted with the theme of Black and White! Are my thoughts just my imagination or is the Illuminati out to get me? I think the grass and trees are poisoned by gangstalkers that I cannot see. So I take this injectable medicine that is supposed to calm my nerves, but I still think they are in the shopping center giving me what I don't deserve! MKUltra and MKOften are the formal names of my demise are they real and keenly active or are my visions a false surprise?