God's Love

When I was young love was a game I did not think about it when I took his name I love him, I need him is what I would say “I will show you we can make it one day” At first it was a fairy tale, a dream come true Till one day I awoke beaten, degraded, abused It started with names degrading and untrue He would say, “don’t look at me, the blame lies with you” “Your worthless, your ugly, who would want you?” Then leave my lying there bleeding and confused “I’m sorry I will never do it again” was the excuse I would accept his apology with that the abuse I dealt with the lying, cheating and names Till one day that frightening time came The day I thought would never happen to us The day I realized leaving was a must The final straw that broke the camels back When I realized I needed to leave and never look back He pulled out his gun and said the world would be better off If he would just simply shoot me then he would scoff I looked at my children frightened and scared Could I forgive myself if he touched even one little hair? Next time he could stab me, shoot me, or worse Maybe next time I will drove away in a hurst I am better than that no matter what that man says Who know why these crazy ideas fill his head I am here today because I was strong I did not give up and I know he was wrong I am beautiful, worthy, intelligent, and free I took the time to search and what I found was me I deserve better, I deserve love And each day I pray and thank God above Thank you for showing me I was stronger than I thought And in that destructive web no longer am I caught I am a mother of three and there’s no bigger joy To still be here today and help assemble their toys To help them to read, write, and show love TO teach them that hating and hitting they are above IT is hard to think I may not be here today If it was not for God’s love that showed me the way.