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Iv been talking to you since I was a kid. Asking for forgiveness and finding my path within. I been loving you since the day I walked in. Trying to find you and putting my faith through thick and thin. I doubted you when it was all over, I didn't believe in you even though you made my childhood a walk through water. Like the pressure on your legs as your trying to walk or the blindness that rises as you sink into the dark. Well its all over now, its been 5 years. I'm sick of the drowning, I'm sick of all the tears. I know what I want but I'm scared of failure, I'm scared of the struggle and I know in the long run Ill just drown in my demons. The demons inside that's just run around, that bring in the darkness, that use my body like a playground. I don't want to ask, I don't want to beg cause I know iv been doing it since I was a kid. I'm done with excuses, I'm done with the fibs. I know what's wrong and I'm ready to let you in. Before I end this with all seriousness in my heart, please just give me the strength to get through this hard part. I'm sorry for my past, I'm sorry for what iv done but from this day forward. I Love You God.