Giving in

I wrote something a while ago I was mad that you were back But now I feel myself letting go It's all numb and the anger I lack I am giving in to you again Hold my writes out And let you tie them "Why can't you just figure this out" The thought sparks in my head And stabs through my heart The glass shatters and all I see is red "You can never just face the bad part" Always need someone to carry you Never strong enough to just make it through Weak broken and alone That's all you will ever be You beg them so an ear they will loan You are a burden and add to a load heavy already I always go back to you Because it's easier than doing the real 'work' The idea tempts and I go through You clouded my thoughts with your senseless murk