Give Up Already

Giving up is so easy, so natural to me No one else cares so why should I... I don't have the strength in me to battle things have gone back to how they were before.. I figured everyone would come to the realization I need serious help Not just a stay at a hospital for a few days and nights She promised a vigorous amount of therapy To mend a mood disorder and addiction I can never come to mends with I've had a plethora of thoughts of making bad decisions Most of them I made reality I wish I could say after my suicidal attempt I've done better I wish I could say I will never do it again.. I wish I could say I won't give up.. but I know I wouldn't mean it