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Gender Dysphoria

Faulty biology adds a perfect suffering Tears in my throat leave me weakly stuttering Fear, pain, and angst leaves my body cold and shuddering Dark thoughts make me unconscious, slumbering I ask about your day and leave your soul merely ignored A lack of words, useless screams onto the lord Of which I lack belief, although desperation cold Closes shut my eyelids and embraces my own soul No one seems to notice all the pain which I withhold Abort physical pain and the infinite dysphoria Add the opposite of pleasure and orgasmic euphoria The result is numbness in an infinite dystopia I see 2 men in the mirror like I'd suffer from dyplopia I feel sickness for myself as a man with autophobia I vomit blood, I've cracked my skull because of nausea My lack of genitalia leaves me with phantom limbs I can't really describe it more than limbs that don't exist Will I ever be okay, or will this pain persist?

Copyright © | Year Posted 2017




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Date: 1/23/2018 10:01:00 PM
Why and what and Oh My God. Why do I have to feel so odd. He and she asked about their bod. I respond in kind and then just nod. Peace. :)
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Kevin Crossed
Date: 5/8/2018 9:03:00 AM
I appreciate the feedback
Date: 12/16/2017 11:25:00 PM
A heart wrenching pen Kevin. Not an easy thing to write about, your visceral eloquence is top notch. xomo
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Kevin Crossed
Date: 12/16/2017 11:59:00 PM
Thank you, Maureen! I am very flattered by this. I do admit that I had to look up the meaning of those words since I am not experienced with such words when it comes to the English language. I am glad that they are somewhat enjoyable while I can express myself and store these emotions elsewhere.