Friendless
There are times when I feel like I’ve had enough;
Don't the tough get going when the going gets rough?
I'm stuck in the mud as the fog fills the air,
This sadness engulfs me like a pit of despair.
Sadness because I’ve been seeking a change,
And yet all I am getting is more of the same,
I keep switching directions and searching for more,
Reaching up high, though I'm stuck to the floor.
This sadness returns like each droplet of rain,
I just cannot shake it, I’ve tried, but in vain.
There are days I just want to shout out in retort,
And yet its familiarity is such a comfort.
It's like a warm hot tub on a freezing day,
You ain't going nowhere but it's warm anyway,
It's like a summer storm when you’re dressed for the sun,
The rain is refreshing and the puddles are fun.
But I don’t want the questions and I don’t want to talk,
I just want to retreat, take a drive, have a walk.
I know you’re concerned and that saddens me more,
I don’t want to bring you down, yet it’s happened before.
When I wanted a friend to make me laugh, or to try,
I picked up my phone and then started to cry,
For I didn’t know anyone that I could call,
A person who could help me get past it all.
I know there are people who care about me,
In fact all my blessings are easy to see,
And yet I find reasons to keep me confined -
They’ve got their own stresses and they don’t need mine.
Though all that I want is to get out of my head,
And yet I get judgements, dismissal instead.
Is it so hard to see the world through my eyes?
I’m seeking a friend, a person who tries.
Copyright © Elaine Ho | Year Posted 2016
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