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Forty Today

Visited you today as the sun set in the horizon… the orange tinged carnations were a perfect complement for the skies and for you… orange and blue always remind me of you the winds softly blew and I just sat there staring at the grass, well more at your name really… hardly believing what I am looking at, that it’s been seven years of missing you, of just putting that reality at the back of my mind… But there are days, such as today which make me confront that reality— I see your smile, remember your laughter celebrate your spirit and your love Tears, I tell you I have the most stubborn tears maybe because they make it so real for me? I look around me and look for that sign Nope, not there… I say a prayer and speak to you thankful for the life shared I kiss the date that you were born and walk away my reflection on the car window misty One last look around, and then I see it… a cat, as we drive away… Skies now streaked purple and pink **My brother would have been 40 today, May 6…

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Kash Poet

Date: 5/6/2020 1:15:00 PM

Hi kabuteng, Came again to read this poem again.A heartfelt tribute to your brother. Do you visit poetrysoup these days?

Kash Poet

Date: 5/6/2018 2:28:00 PM

Hi Nikko, just came here to read this hearfelt poem. Have you stopped writing?

Kabuteng P.Ink K.
Date: 5/7/2018 10:47:00 AM

Hi Kash, yet again, you visit this page. Thank you for always remembering my brother's birthday. About writing-- yeah, i try but the words have gone on vacation or something...

Kash Poet
Date: 5/6/2018 2:29:00 PM

*heartfelt

Kash Poet

Date: 5/5/2017 10:43:00 PM

kabuteng P.iNk k. I visited your poetry page today to read this touching poem. Every time I read it ,my mind clouded up.

Kabuteng P.Ink K.
Date: 5/6/2017 3:51:00 AM

Thank you, kash for never failing to visit here... It means much to me you do.. Missing my brother so much more this year. God bless your heart, shucks, just getting all teary eyed here....

Kash Poet

Date: 5/6/2016 10:43:00 AM

And here I am.This year you are binibining P.iNK :).Read this poem again.

Kash Poet

Date: 5/6/2015 2:15:00 AM

So you are wala na :) Visited this page today and read this touching poem again.

Kash Poet

Date: 5/6/2014 2:18:00 AM

Rereading this touching poem ,beautiful tribute to your brother--kash

Gautami Phookan

Date: 1/31/2014 5:08:00 PM

And I came to read this poem again today..Nikko! my dearest girl! Now I saw Kashi comes here every year. When you visit him, we'll be there with you. and tell him through you we love him too...

Kash Poet

Date: 5/6/2013 6:52:00 AM

Hi nikko,I came back here today and reread this touching poem.

Kash Poet

Date: 5/6/2012 12:15:00 AM

He would have been 41 today.I came back today to read this heartfelt poem Nikko.You must have visited him today--Dada(elder brother) from India.

Timothy Brumley

Date: 6/3/2011 11:52:00 AM

What an exceptionally beautiful poem Nikko! I was looking for one of your poems from your heart and not for a contest and I found it:) Soooo much better written from tears instead of ink, don't you agree? This one goes to my favorites:) And I don't even like free verse:)

C.C Bloomsfield

Date: 5/24/2011 6:26:00 AM

Im glad i stopped to read this gem,mist in my eyes,feelin your goodbyes ,as i watch you dear brother,from heaven he smiles,hugs.

Andrea Dietrich

Date: 5/14/2011 12:10:00 AM

Nikko. The cat was the sign? Do you really think it's your brother? I just love this, and the skies streaked purple and pink. Wow, did this happen for you and the very day this year?? This is absolutely wonderful and I can't believe I missed it the other day. A Fave.

Gwendolen Song

Date: 5/13/2011 5:20:00 PM

You see, there WAS A SIGN! A kitty! You drove some intense emotions into the audience in this honoring piece. The love of brother and sister is beautiful-especially when reflecting of childhood days. Your words are so direct and place a seat for the readers right beside you at your brother's grave site.....you are soooo talented! The more emotional you are, the better your poetry! This is going in to my favs along with other greats-honored u shared your heart here. Gwendolen

Gautami Phookan

Date: 5/10/2011 8:23:00 AM

My! nikko, a very touching poem. He must have been a wonderful bro,you love him sooo much and a very beautiful tribute to him. felt sad, he would've been my age now...Love to you dear, gautami

Linda-Marie Sweetheart

Date: 5/8/2011 10:59:00 AM

Sweet reminisce of the good times u had with your brother sweet friend Nikko.. a lovely tribute to his memory.. so young to pass onto another realm .. but who knows why? my J.J. would have been 19 had he lived ..also on May 6th.. what a sweet connection luv..

Poet Destroyer A

Date: 5/7/2011 10:43:00 PM

A very touching poem nikko,... Did not expect for it to be about your brother ... I really sat there sad cause with out reading your pOem.. I wrote one similar about colors ... But its the way I see them... They remind me of my little girl who can't be with me... The bright one.... This it one of your best writes ... Thanks 4 sharing... Always p.d..or pzztop...

Carolyn Devonshire

Date: 5/7/2011 12:31:00 PM

Such a loving tribute to your brother, Nikko. I'm so sorry he died young. I'm glad you saw that sign as you drove away. A special, touching poem! Love, Carolyn

James Fraser

Date: 5/7/2011 12:00:00 PM

Heartfelt poem Nikko, I so miss my brother also. He died in 1969, aged 9. This sure wants to make me cry. Have a lovely weekend....:) James

Kash Poet

Date: 5/7/2011 1:39:00 AM

Oops!typing errors!doing from mobile so....

Kash Poet

Date: 5/7/2011 1:30:00 AM

let other read it at HOt POeMs Page.After 9 comments it is bound to be tnere;)

Kash Poet

Date: 5/7/2011 1:27:00 AM

Revisited.My mind clouded up.....

Carrie Richards

Date: 5/6/2011 11:27:00 AM

Dear Nikko....you have moved me to tears, the emotion is filled with love, sadness, but gratitude for the time you had together. Oh, how you have filled my heart this morning. And the picture you have posted on your blog....is pure happiness in a strawberry field. What a treasure that photo is....so filled with joy in that field of sunshine! Cherish your memories, ....and please feel free to be happy for each one of them. He will feel your love from the other side:)xoxoxox

Nette Onclaud

Date: 5/6/2011 9:45:00 AM

so moved, nikks... my parents have passed on and so did my 2brothers who saw the light at such young age, almost like yours.. a stirring piece that makes me remember how they are still with us in spirit... beautiful! :) huggs, nette

Kash Poet

Date: 5/6/2011 9:39:00 AM

This goes to my Favs Nikko.Very touching...

Sarah Seraphin

Date: 5/6/2011 8:54:00 AM

* my first true loves birthday is this very day also * “Beautiful & Gifted Nikko” * once more i am blessed to touch * “The Spirit of Beauty” * and yet upon the wake of a hearts shadowed moment * one day the two shall be reunited forevermore * “Absolutely Stirring & Completely Beautiful Poem” * hugs and kisses * kisses and hugs * sarah