Forgiveness

They say the world is round, and yet I often think that it is square today for the first time I prayed and asked God to forgive and forgive my sins and that there will be the doors of heaven ....... So many small pains we have and anguish that day after day usually come more often .. When those diseases come to you and you are not prepared and you realize who really cares it hurts you and at the same time you open your eyes, many times I immajine my different death maybe dramatic as it was my life I always liked the attention, it was the lack of affection , and I liked to be center of attention .. I did not do it to make anyone feel bad it was simply my way to feel better .... But a great truth in the life that I have found, Being here alone writing what I am feeling The only people who really hurt They are the ones we love the most. And we also unintentionally hurt them because I don't have the answer .. but I think we are all afraid to express ourselves and when we do it people are not prepared to listen to their mistakes, or we do not usually recognize our failures nor do we know how to ask for forgiveness we always blame others ..... i realized my mistakes and many things that I have to correct, I am not perfect but I would like to change many decisions that I made that only caused me pain and cause pain it is said that you learn from mistakes for me a little late but if one day you read these lines I apologize and I hope that one day you understand why I did things like that .... We flatter those we barely know, Please, the fleeting guest, And take many irreflexive blows ...Aaron my son I love you I would like to return time and not make the mistakes I made ..., my mental health is in critical condition ... in fact a stroke and heart attack caused me. I do not know if that is a factor in which my life has ended like this but you can’t not immagine the pain that I am going through I don’t wish anyone to be in this place where I am alone ... I hope you forgive me ... god bless you