Forever and a Day

Like most I suffer from heartbreak It don't however affect just my heart It makes my whole body ache Ache and longing to hold him holding me Ache and longing from this misery to be free The loneliness wouldn't be so bad But it's the not knowing how he feels I can't take What I said to him wasn't fake For Gods sake I wouldn't make up something like that I'm in love with him have always been for years Didn't realize it for so long so now because of this I count my tears I told him this I can't help how I feel And I know for certain this is so very real I know together we can help each other heal Think though I've really scared him off for good this time There are no good reasons nor any good rhymes No one is to blame Christ it's been almost nineteen years that have come and gone since together last And it all seemed at the time to go so slow Yet in harsh reality it all went by way to fast The wonderful memories of my unforgettable past Damn the years we let slip by Gone forever in a blink of an eye Only to re-play ever so slowly Over and over in the back of our minds Life is all to often unkind The pain is a never ending fight With yourself in which you lose sight Of all around you And also like most I yet can't let go Not until for sure I know If he feels for me the same Or if my mind was just playing another game Can't do like I did before Can't keep on walking out the door Not looking back for so long, closing it and locking him away I've had my chance to say I'm in love with him I know my chances are grim Of getting to hear the same of him But I believe him and me We're meant to be I know we still have each others heart And from one another we should've never been torn apart So I still dream, hope and pray Maybe someday At long last We can stop the many regrets we have of our past Oh I know I should move on But the feelings between us they're not gone I will go on trying Even if I have to be continually crying I love him in every way For him I'll hold on... Forever and a day