For You

You are already gone aren't you? I thought you would stay longer, But time is killing whatever you had for me, or was it killed already, The moment you chose to let go, You can't tell me " you are different", I got my mind set up for that the whole time, Then, you make me no different than those of your past, I'm not mad at you, I'm not crying of pain, I'm just absorbing truth, From the start, My Intentions wasn't for good, I selfishly kept holding on, needing you for the time being, not wanting you for good, never thought you will be the one letting go, I knew there was an end hiding somewhere for us, by the corners or under the table, Now, that it's over, I can't stop the thought of you coming in, I can not not smile when it does, I can't stop a heart ache either, Every now and then, I can't stop a little awe, When I see how far you moved away, Or How fast you moved on, Baby, I think of the next time we shall meet, I know it won't be very idyllic for me, To see the death of it, Inside those brown ones of yours, I can feel it already I don't want to mourn it anymore, Maybe, it's chastisement sent from Heaven, For my intentions to obey the good only, You said your goodbyes already, It's time to feel the relief in them, I can feel a bit of it already, Here I am, This Time I'm sincere, I do wish the better, even the best for you.