For the Last Time
I got this tingling feeling in my cranium
I know I’ve been going through the manias of craziness…
Don’t know how I got in this mess
Don’t give up on me yet – I feel numb
Without you by my side…these hardships will bring forth success…
Sometimes, I regret the word ‘yes’
Because all these tears I cradle
Are making me feel overwhelmed
I remember you and how you were unstable
I’m sorry, but I foolishly delved
Into not-so-pretty subjects
I didn’t know about the causes and the effects
I beg of you, don’t let me down – I wound up being disappointed to the core
This bittersweet heart is longing for something more
Getting rid of rue, wearing depression’s crown and I’m feeling quite sore
Nothing lasts – I’ve learned…everything breaks down
What now? What more is there to say? I wear this frown
Listening to music on my leisure time won’t help me to avoid
All topics that lead to you…I feel like a destroyed Android
I’m as worthless as rotten, lifeless bark
I wish I was Noah in his animal-filled ark
I must be madly in love with you all over again
And admitting it is hard honestly…so, how’ve you been?
For the last time,
I felt like I was in captivity!
Can’t you see I wanna be free?
I’m frustrated because I’m living with scars that won’t heal
You just live life like it’s no big deal…
You spin the wheel of bogus appeal
I’m unemployed and I’m not satisfied as much as it hurts
I’m not one of those experts…I’m just a poet that takes comfort
In this lonely cave
But, I’ll be brave
For the last time,
I felt this pensive paradise within myself
Why do you make me feel like a useless, childish elf?
I’m trying my best to pass this difficult test…
The test of correction that I truly detest
I’m righteous and wicked all in one package
Sorry, I’m not perfect, oh Lord Almighty…you know me well, I know
Don’t I feel wicked in this age of war and rage…
Don’t take me lightly, dear, or you’re making a mistake right now
For the last time (a time I feel so sublime),
We were horsing around with each other…
For the last time (it seems for a moment in time),
We’re holding each other close…we are together
In one body, spirit, mind and heart…
We are together in this…I need your kiss…
I am a mixture of white and the abyss…
You make me laugh – eh, nothing new
Because I feel foolish, being with you
You make me wise – you gave me love with no lies
I’m belittling myself in my eyes, but you never shelter me with goodbyes
You gave me your highs and I gave you my lows and vice versa
I gave my time up for you…because I adore you in doubtless awe
There will be no last time…
Some force separates us...
We shouldn’t be doing this…
We’re on the same bus
Give me a hug and a kiss…
Because I can’t go on, making love with someone I can’t be in love with
This is the last time I’m gonna think of my blurry, lonesome past
I want this love from above to last…time goes by so fast…too fast…
I’m walking my confident stride
Humility and patience is on my side
Self-control, trust me, I need help on that one
Don’t worry – I’m yours and you’re mine, so don’t worry much
For, you are everything to me – I’m just busy all the time and such
Copyright © J.W. Earnings | Year Posted 2016
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