For My Mother

I'm sorry I wasn't the perfect girl you always wanted I'm sorry that you had to deal with me everyday I'm sorry I was too much to handle, so much that you had to send me away. I'm sorry that I got you so worried I'm sorry i was so confused that I cried to myself at night I'm sorry I was so stupid, I didn't know the difference between wrong and right. I'm sorry I just wanted you to be happy I'm sorry I messed up your life I'm sorry i tried solving everything with a knife I'm sorry I was so miserable I'm sorry it was so hard to smile, I even had to pretend I'm sorry things never got better, I always thought there'd be a happy end. I'm sorry I had to leave I'm sorry all I ever wanted was to be home I'm sorry I wanted to be with you but now I'm alone. I'm sorry I caused trouble I'm sorry I had to learn everything the hard way I'm sorry I always thought It'll be okay. I'm sorry I wasn't always there I'm sorry I was your only one I'm sorry I did things that shouldn't have been done. I'm sorry I was too much to handle I'm sorry I covered up everything with a lie. I'm sorry but I wanted to let you know that I really did try. I'm sorry I always complain I'm sorry but i did try to change I'm sorry even after that things were the same I'm sorry for everything I'm sorry that this is what things turned out to be I just wanted you to know that I'm sorry for Acting in my dreams, not reality I'm sorry for Tripping over things I didn't see I'm sorry for Taking things blind, not knowing what they'd be And I'm sorry for messing everything up Between you and me.