For My First Love

For my first love, I wasn’t supposed to fall But she fell fast and I fell hard Before her I loved Without knowing what loving someone could really mean I loved, but never as hard as I loved my own autonomy My first love put her pen to paper Her words of love only made me want to escape her But her sweet heart turned my scars into art, The ones I had mended with gold Despite being scared, how could I help But to leave a crack in the door? For my first love, I wasn’t supposed to fall But she fell fast and I fell hard For my first love, I wasn’t supposed to fall And for the first time, I didn’t care if love would leave me with scars For my first love, I wasn’t supposed to fall But I fell so hard I sometimes wonder, If she even fell at all