First Love Impossible Puzzle

Confronted with a conundrum
an impossible choice to convey
solution was simple but dumb
promise & puzzle locked away

one hand was selfish
take her heart and begin
yet down the road a wish
what life could have been

there would have been resentment
as is always the case
10 years of contentment
before love ceased its pace

other hand was selfless
must live without me today
but down the road a wish
I would come back one day

weary of the weight
impossible promises to keep
Each night I did wait
and prayed before sleep

I was tricked into a vow
by a mother who loved her deeply
She knew my character somehow
devoted my life to her, sweetly

After a while I grew upset
until I learned her mom died
with unyielding regret
I cried and I cried

No possibility for her to take it away
no revoking the burden on my back
Carrying the hopes of tomorrow, today
to solve a puzzle that even God couldn't crack.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2018

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