First Love Impossible Puzzle

Confronted with a conundrum an impossible choice to convey solution was simple but dumb promise & puzzle locked away one hand was selfish take her heart and begin yet down the road a wish what life could have been there would have been resentment as is always the case 10 years of contentment before love ceased its pace other hand was selfless must live without me today but down the road a wish I would come back one day weary of the weight impossible promises to keep Each night I did wait and prayed before sleep I was tricked into a vow by a mother who loved her deeply She knew my character somehow devoted my life to her, sweetly After a while I grew upset until I learned her mom died with unyielding regret I cried and I cried No possibility for her to take it away no revoking the burden on my back Carrying the hopes of tomorrow, today to solve a puzzle that even God couldn't crack.