first friend last love

Your ghost haunts me 
Not in the slamming doors flickering light sense 
You haunt me in a way that I welcome 
Away where every tiara brings my mind back to you,
Every princess, 
every tutu, 
every time “bad boys” plays,
every unconventional dance party,
Flees my memories to the last time I saw you. 
The bravest, strongest girl I have and ever will meet 
The girl who never believed in a period or comma only exclamation points
The girl whose body wasn't as strong as her true heart 
The last time I heard her voice 
she said excitedly ”we'll do it together, I'll help you”
Neither of us aware she wouldn't show up Monday 
Neither aware of the phone call that night 
Neither aware those words would echo 13 years later
Unknowing that the pain that broke a young girl's spirit 
Would grow with her and linger as she got older 
After then  everyday living felt like guilt  
They said as we enjoy our lives we bring the dead with us so they never truly die 
but what gives me the right to keep breathing when a light so bright had to turn off when mine was already dim to begin with ?
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Jones Avatar
January 20, 2026 at 11:46 AM
Ryn congrats on your win in my contest! Enjoyed reading your words though they were somber! Thanks for your entry! Blessings!
Agustin Avatar
January 17, 2026 at 12:41 AM
Thanks for sharing this... exposing your thoughts through your unique poetic style. Welcome to Poetry Soup. I welcome you with the love of the Lord, expressed by John 3:16 of the Bible, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." Be blessed.
Kendrick Avatar
January 16, 2026 at 9:35 AM
If you lose someone so important, it is important to make the most of your life that would enhance your friend's memory. It is never too late to make a mark on the world in your friend's name. Thank you for sharing this one with us. Welcome to soup. Sara K
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