Finding Peace

Facing my new reality can be overwhelming I am blessed to be the mother of two sons one of which is accomplishing great things here on earth and the other is in heaven I have always been proud of both of my sons, and of course, I love them both no matter what, but it is difficult knowing that my youngest chose heaven instead of earth Why is that? He was plagued by mental illness on earth and now he is whole and at peace, what mother wouldn't want that for their child? Why is it causing such grief for all of us? Because we are human, and God's ways are sometimes hard to understand, but I am hearing him as he tells me to "rest in me" So, I will rest and trust and hope to eventually find peace