Final Goodbye

this is my final goodbye
but i aint gonna cry
its my final goodbye
but i aint gonna cry

99 problems i should be renamed hova
i use tot think about u but u never came closer
you or mom couldnt remain soba
i write this cuz i need the pain over

i was always the first to blame myself
for all the hurt and pain i felt
few times wanted to kurt kobain myself
but all these words came to help

i guess im a bad guy
25th feb 07 my dad died
i find it hard to shed tears
i put pen to paper and make my pad cry

i often wonder if you were there for me
would things of been diffrent
would we of laughed and shared storys
or would i be a kid whos father aint missin

we cant always have what we want and need
all i wanted was my dad
is that so bad
am i allowed to admit im sad

does that give u to much ammo
because i rap people expect me to be rambo
i was on da edge of a cliff 
and you let my hand go

i remeber you and mom fightin
hopin it would stop
i was in the corner cryin
thinkin how much does a hug cost

age 3 i got took into care
got to see u 6 times a year
on contact u would turn up blind from beer
look in my eyes u wont find a tear

i dont wanna sound like im dissin you
ur my dad i cant rin from missin you
but u and mom brought so much hurt to me
and your death was the rebirth of me

2 months after you passed 
my best friend commited suicide
a yaer later my gf miscqarried my child
sumhow i still manage to carry a smile
Copyright © | Year Posted 2011

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June 20, 2011 at 5:03 AM
A very hard story, really hope it's not true. Would be easier to read if you'd checked the spelling, punctiation and capitalisation. I know its a style thing, but I really don't think you need quite so many 'txt' words in there. Interesting, not so easy to read.
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